Now what?

I can't believe it has been a month since Ari was born. Where did the time go? Everything seems such a blur. I can't really remember the early couple of weeks except the joy of holding Ari and at the same time thinking "Oh no, now what? Will people see that I'm not sure how to do this?" I've experienced every emotion over the past few weeks and I'm exhausted. Talking about the birth with Dimi and our Maternal and Child Health Nurse was good, she explained a few things that happened during the birth and was really helpful and supportive. I hadn't thought how scared and helpless Dimi felt in the birthing room, well let's face it I was pretty occupied at the time and all the focus was on me, it was good for both of us to talk about it from our different viewpoints.

I still feel anxious about the breastfeeding, but over the past week it doesn't hurt so much and my confidence is growing because Ari has put on weight. My world is feeding every 3 to 4 hours day and night, changing nappies and settling my baby to sleep. The nurse said he was healthy but he still seems to cry a lot, most of the time I have no idea why and this is stressful.

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